The heart wants what it wants

In this era of fake smiles and sugar coated words
If u set out to search for real emotions
Disappointment shall come your way...

If u believe that in this time of casual sex and one night stands
Ur hunt will give u true love right away
Trust me... betrayal will strike thou ... once again

If u think in this age, where ppl have multiple flings and love none
Ull find the one giving u ur desired affection and care
Um sorry , reality will show u the bitter phase !!!

If u think in this phase where people are commitment phobic and shiver by its mere name
Ull find ur partner different in his say
Wake up and realise... things don’t happen anymore that way ..!

In this time , where people hardly take 3-4 days to flip their partners
If u think ull find ur happily ever after bae
.. how do I even tell u... how wrong is ur take !!!

But but... inspite of all these proven facts
How do u convince ur hopeful heart
Love now is a long forgotten thing
People believe in keeping their sane

But disregarding everything
Ignoring all the bits and tats
At the end , the heart wants what it wants
N shall continue to search that sway

So .. in this condition
Where the mind knows the truth but the heart has its hopes ignited
Let the search be on, let the dreams be on
Who knows at the end of the tunnel
U might  end up finding that light
U might end up finding ur light ❤️❤️

Till when will I love him ?

After 365 days n nights of misery, shedding million n millions of teardrops
Tired of faking that smile all around, n ignoring when the conversation bout him crops...
Till when will I love him...?

After all that he did, after all that I bared..
Alone ... n indeed alone n strong I went...
After all that he did wrong, n the lies on which truths he sweared...
The question remains the same....
Till when will I love him ..?

The betrayal wasn’t small, n um not even comparing it with nyones else’s story
For he chose to continue with some other page n some other character, while I chose my self respect and glory
But still sitting at time, trying to scribble through old memories, I again ask myself
Till when will I love him...?

Yes indeed now I’m used to that void he created,
I’m used to his absence in my life
Though yes the memories still prick me up
All I can do is sit back and think n then sigh...
For whatever reasons things cant be reverted back ,
But then it all comes back to the same
Till when will I love him...?

So yes, moving on is what life is about
And indeed that’s what I’ve been trying to do
But, how can I just ignore for the fact and not let my memory shout out loud
Coz yes indeed enough or maybe more had I loved him...
N inspire of all that I had been through and um still going through ...!!!
Till when will I love him...??? Till when will I love him ..!!!!

what if ...??

What if the one u love... doesn't love u back
What if the one u love knows u love them... but belongs to someone else..
What if the one u love ... tends to forget u
What if the one u love tends not to belong to u...
What if the one u love... stays in ur poetry... in ur memories ... in ur dreams ... but not in ur life..
What if ur the one unlucky in love !!!
There's nothing u can do about it !!!
There's so much to think ... so much to give ... so much to feel..
But all u can do .. is pick up the ink soaked pen.... n scribble ur emotions ..
Coz the one u love ... isn't even aware ... of what u go through !!!
That each day ... u swipe ur hands on his name embedded on a books front page ...
That each day ... u read a poem written by him... n try n slip to the slumber ... u May ...
Each day ... u wish to see him one more time.... since he's just so far away ...
But what if.. that's just not possible ..
What if he doesn't know that u feel so much for him ... n it all goes in vain ..
Love u see ... is just a strange feeling... for some ... its just adjacent to their site, lying beside them in their bed ..
N to some ... forever in the poetry ... it has to stay ...!!
PS: Ull know it the day Ull read it ... its for h ❤️ so much love... but not enuf words to say !!! 

What do u do??

They say that frnds have got ur back...
But what if the one u thought are ur backbone...
Leave it snapped n twisted !!!

What if the ones u thought are gonna be thr ...
Disown u in one second...

What u do in such situations... when ur self respect is at stake Coz of the ones u had put ur faith into..

Most deadly situation is when the relationship who had counted on puts u n ur self being at stake...

What do u do in such situations... what do u choose...

When do u knw that this is the time to walk away... n not look back to something that was ur all !!!

What do u do ??

randoms

Khwahishoṅ ko pura karne ki chah main
Zindagi Mai itna aage baḍh gaye hum...


Ki unse hi door hona paḍa
Jinhone zindagi ka pehla kadam lena sikhaya tha...

the real me

Flipping through the days
And passing by those moments
When i paused to seek my reflection
I found... that it wasn't me

The girl dancing in the rain
The singing bird in night
The one trying to know it all
I somewhere knew it wasn't me

In the rush of an hour
In the fast pace of this world
Trying to adapt to a stronger version
This new identity that you see, isn't me

This new created identity
Merely a cover up for the lost girl be
N harder i try to be back to the older version
All efforts go in vain, i don't find me

The build up so concrete
Overpowering everything that's weak
But blinking through those sleepless nights
I still try to seek the real me

Went places to places
Questioned one or the other
Alas !! Only to my disappointment
Somewhere far, i had lost me

Where art thou, the lil innocent girl
Where art thou, the cute lil monster
Where art thou, the genuine me
Exhausted n worked up.... i cant find the Real me
I miss the real me !!!

the incomplete n untold

After time n long
Of the striking cold wibes
That warm breeze had hit me
Like a geyser in the Ice

Like fine wine
It kept growing n how
Whatever it was happening
Feeling were set to growl

Poetry, stars , pool
Silly, honest, emotional tinch
Hey what was it happening,
Is it real?? Pls gimme a pinch

Bliss smile n what not
One confession brought with it
N yes ... it was both sided
To which we both had submit !!

He told me the something
N i told him the same
Blushing grinding n everything else
Was i really goin insane

But i dint ask nythn i return
N so wasn't he ready to give
It was Ohk from a perspective
Coz different lives we both had to live

N u know what they say
Not all stories have to end
Some should stay incomplete
With some blushes, n some dents

Scream of my silence

with that broad smile on my face
Chucking all those sorrows away
I still at times, I sit back and think
What's that's missing, where's my zing

In a room full of crowd
I still find myself lonely
Trying hard to figure out
What's that's missing, that one thing only

There's nothing I lack
Nothing that I'm short of
Still everyday I'll wear a fake smile
A calm n content person to show off

At times I feel so broken
Broken into two
But then I remember
It won't work out if I stay in this gloom

Wish it was simple to figure out
How to fill that hollow space
Something unknown that um in need of
Something for which I long, something for which I crave

Till then, I've got this in mind
That there'll definitely be a dawn
 N waiting for that I say
The show must go on... the show must go on

Set yourself free

Behind those closed bars
That only I could see
I tried to extend my hand
And reach that sunshine for glee

Flowing winds sparkling water
Chirping of birds in the sky be
Even so many imposed restrictions
Couldn't forbid them to reach me

Everyday every second
A fixed robotic scheduled is there be
But a sneak peak n a lil cheating
A break from this, um able to seek

Sometimes by my dance
Ahh sound of my ghungroos, please :))
The strumming to my guitar strings
Oh happiness, what more could u be

To all those kids
I go out on Sundays to meet
To every things I get for them
With that big smile they say" thanku Di"

To all those cribbing souls
Grumpiness hidden behind those masks be
Get up, get started
To reach ur happiness, thou shall flee

So remember this that I say
Store it in ur mind maybe
Your happiness is right there
All u need is to set urself free
Set urself free...

Things will get sorted

Like the dusk reaches the dawn
Like the nights have sunrises
Like all the ventures return back home
Like all the dirt comes down the dome

All i wanna say is
At the end of the day
Everything goes back to its place
Everything just gets sorted

Then why do we..
We the advanced human beings
Keep that sobbing goin on
Keep the mourning goin on

They say let by gones be bygones
N i knw how hard it is to implement that be
But on a serious note, what has happened wont get reverted
What was bad has been done, so leg it be

Today, tomorrow or maybe after a month or a week
U have to get back again on ur feet
be the strong soul Uve alwaz been

A small damage , a bad incident
Cant take away ur charm
What happened was a lesson
Cant be capable to tear u apart

So remember when i say this
Be a happy free spirit Uve alwaz been
Coz however dark the night maybe
Sunrise will break through definitely
U just wait n see... u just wait n see

When a guy happens

What yesterday seemed to b a normal landscape
Seems to be a beautiful view...
That's when a guy happens

When someone who would just get up , get dressed n is ready to go
Takes a second look to herself before she leaves the room
That's when a guy happens

When the one who complains that the time. Isn't passing by
Wants the clock to stop ticking...
That's when a guy happens

When u talk bout the stars , the moon, the beauty of the night
And thn ur glad to knw that the other talks bout the same
That's when a guy happens

When someone who can boldly look up into ppls eyes
Just shys away with that one look
That's when a guy happens

U might deny, might accept, night fight it out or ignore the fact that's thr

But even u knw... the guy has happened :))

Out of anger

for you I'm not a human being
Not even an individual alive
To h um just an order taking machine
In human skin disguised

I'm required to follow every order blindly
Without putting my logics in
Taking in all the trash said
Accumulating them all within

Good deeds aren't appreciated
But smallest of flaw is highlighted the most
N once u got a bad name
It follows u forever like a ghost

Where for even taking a survival breath
A prior permission is required
And when it comes to freedom
It's something which for long we've desired

Difference of one single boundary
Makes two worlds wide apart
It's not just about uniform or liberties
They are free for everything and rules on us bombard

Why this injustice why this harshness
When politenessand humanity can deal it better
But they never consider us theirs
N ever taken action , makes us shatter

Today and for coming days
I'll keep searching for a way out
I never did n can never belong here
That's something very clear and loud !!

Yes I'm free

yes in free...
Inspite of all your rules and regulations ...
Discipline and restrictions

They all fail to bound me


I have the freedom to think
To make my own choices
Pursue my wishes n be ....
Freedom to think, freedom to breathe




Physically u might have captivated me
But ur impositions or statergies
But my mind isn't a slave to ur rules
My soul isn't obliged to any
Yes I'm free

Emptiness

i pick up my pen
To spill the ink
To form few words
But I fail
All over again

I spill the ink
On pages left blank
To express the hidden
Feelings I posses


But yet again I fail
To reduce the contaminating plight
And that hollow feeling

Keeps piercing me from inside

First post :))

That grin on my face...
It's just not leaving
As I sit alone and smile again
Down in the memory lane... um leading