Till when will I love him ?

After 365 days n nights of misery, shedding million n millions of teardrops
Tired of faking that smile all around, n ignoring when the conversation bout him crops...
Till when will I love him...?

After all that he did, after all that I bared..
Alone ... n indeed alone n strong I went...
After all that he did wrong, n the lies on which truths he sweared...
The question remains the same....
Till when will I love him ..?

The betrayal wasn’t small, n um not even comparing it with nyones else’s story
For he chose to continue with some other page n some other character, while I chose my self respect and glory
But still sitting at time, trying to scribble through old memories, I again ask myself
Till when will I love him...?

Yes indeed now I’m used to that void he created,
I’m used to his absence in my life
Though yes the memories still prick me up
All I can do is sit back and think n then sigh...
For whatever reasons things cant be reverted back ,
But then it all comes back to the same
Till when will I love him...?

So yes, moving on is what life is about
And indeed that’s what I’ve been trying to do
But, how can I just ignore for the fact and not let my memory shout out loud
Coz yes indeed enough or maybe more had I loved him...
N inspire of all that I had been through and um still going through ...!!!
Till when will I love him...??? Till when will I love him ..!!!!